Sunday, August 19, 2007
i think lately i've been feeling really weirdly, like the sunshine has gone behind the clouds or something, maybe it's because i miss kinkin, or maybe because im going through depression, in which my freaking DA YI MA is freaking coming and im having weird mood swings all over the place. my boobs are starting to hurt and im having frequent headaches, old songs to reminace, slowly sinking into serenity and insecurity. fuck life, i almost hate being human.
oh my god, i so love avril's when you're gone song, it's so sad la, right vann? (: the 'I MISS YOU' song. ahahaha! you know, i realised songs really play a huge part of your life, like different songs have different flashes of your life. it's really nice listening to the songs that got you through your primary and secondary school days, the days of the DA AH LIANS and all. ahahaha! (: (see! i told you im like menopausing or something! one minute im talking all about fucking life, then im talking about freaking avril. like what the hell. something's really wrong with me.)
PRIMARY SCHOOL
1) Backstreet Boys - I want it that way
2) Backstreet Boys - Larger than Life
3) Britney Spears - Crazy
4) Britney Spears - Opps! I did it again!
SECONDARY SCHOOL
1) Limp Bizkit - Keep Rollin'
2) A*teens - Upside Down
3) A*teens - Halfway Around the World
4) ALL THE FREAKING F4 SONGS! (1st album)
5) ALL 5566 SONGS!
6) JOLIN TSAI (shuo ai ni) (kan wo 72 pian)
7) Mandy Moore - Cry
there's like so many more luh. but these songs remind me more about what happened during a particular periods of time, flashes of what was forgotten, the laughter, the pain, heartaches and heart-throbs. Secondary school, hmmm, you seem to be searching for that identity of yours, like you dont know who you wanna become, but you dont wanna feel left out at the same time. For me, blame it on peer influences, i kinda became like an ahlian, tryin' to speak chinese all the time and all even though my friends all tell me not to. ahahaha. but i think i can luh. wahlau, simidaiji. i can lor. i used to type like that, HeLlOzzxx! soOoo CutEz bAhhxzxzxxz! HoRxzz! LubbIexx eUuuuuUu! ahahaha. okay. i cant even read what im writing can. ahahaha! (: and and and i was like fat fat fat back in secondary school.
here's a picture of how stress can enable you to have a distinct love for all the junkies you munch during your O levels :
That's me alright! (: 2004. ahahaha. OMFG. i look so fat luh. seriously. yucks. i look like a freakin' MAN! okay okay. 2005.
Still fat shit right? ahahahah! god. i miss my FOC teammates. EH RENDALL! thought you were going to organise an outing! nehnehpok luh you. (: happy times. happy happy times.
it's 2006! ahahaha. thank god. netball rocks my socks! it's kinkinchu! (: love!
2007! (: LIGHTS CAMERA ACTION!
it's getting depressing again. ahahahah! shit. okays. i shall leave now before i start emo-ing all about fucking life here. (: much love! ♥
Labels: life's a bitch
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