these past few 2 weeks have been really really tough on me and him. i mean like he has to leave for army and everything and after that we have to like see each other lesser and lesser as the weeks past by. i guess i have been too independent on him, but im sure you guys cant blame me as i need him as my pillar of support and strength, without him around i will crumble. he left for the combat fighting and YES SIR yelling yesterday,on our 6th month anniverary, leaving me behind with nothing but myself, school and netball. well, at least there's netball. (: thank god for netball. ahahaha. yeah. but come to think of it, maybe the army would make him a better man than he already is, maybe then he would be more matured about the world and everything.

the last night together was really really tear-jerking, i mean, like can you imagine your loved one breaking down and telling you to drink more water, stretch more, take care of myself, dont injure myself, be more independent and crying at the same time? while he embraced me fully into the warmth of his hug, i took in a deep inhale of his little body smell. like i would rememeber how he would smell like and how he feels like. sounds gross, i know. but only those who have someone they love so much would seriously understand the smell thing. ahahaha. AND he gave me his MANTAPOLO! ahahahaha. that small lil bolster! with his SMELL! yay! ahahaha. now i can smell it anytime i want and hug it to sleep at night!


anyways, 2 weeks passes in a flash. i know the vittorians will be there no matter what. we will stand side by side no matter what. once a vittorian, always a vittorian! sometimes, i see aizhen and mike together in school, see mj and her cf, i cant help thinking how lucky they are to be able to see their loved ones everyday. they should really cherish those together moments together as one. cause one day, it might just disappear just like that, in a flash. you would really be thinking, oh! anyways, it will be like ages away and ill think about that later! but time really flies, really. and it happened to me. so yeah. im learning to be stronger without him around me. i need to be more independent. but if i were to break down once in while, please understand. give me some time babes! ((: thank you once again for sticking by me. in which i can proudly say as my friends. ((:

i pray to the almighty god to watch over him and bless him no matter what he does. let your overflowing mercy be upon him and guide him through this new journey in which he has to embark on. i pray for you to teach him the rights and wrongs of his doings with your guiding hand in which he will realise that it was you all along carrying him and his burden all through these years. thank you father. in jesus name. amen. ((: i love you chukinsing. take care please. kisses.

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