Sunday, June 18, 2006

there are a certain few people in your life that can seriously hit you in the face with a two tonned hammer and not bat an eyelid, well not even an eyelash. it could be your arch enemy, it could be your little bitching backstabber friend, or it could even be your bloody little irritant of a brother. but when it comes down to what-you-thought was your-very-close-friend, then it's a totally different story altogether.

i had thought she had been one of my closest confidant, my dirty little secret dirtbag, my shoulder to cry on. we had crazy-wazy noisy fun together, the fun times were definately a BLAST! we would laugh at the littlest thing, we knew that we had together to rely on, had little gossips now and then. the songs we used to sing at the top of our voices on the bus in thailand, our little pon de replay dance, our kinsing-yali adventures and how we used to laugh at them, how we used to compare how similar the both of them actually are.it has been almost a year when i first knew her. the first time we did the crazy in love dance in the middle of court! man! that was super duper hillarious. somehow, i knew deep inside that maybe, this was one friend that i could rely on for the rest of my life.

however, as they always say, good things never last, i guess she must have a reason for ignoring our exsistence. it was definately a rude awakening, on that miserable rainy day. i do understand, maybe she does prefer THEIR company compared to mine alone. maybe i have barred my soul too much for her to see, maybe i trusted her too much, maybe she looks down on us as she herself is a fantastic player on court. the questions have been in my head over and over again ever since that fateful day. why? why do people change? why can't everything be as simple so that everyone can live in harmony? i sound so like a miss universe personnal. WORLD PEACE! ahahaha. sandra bullock wanna-be. she's cute okay! yeah. okay.

sighs. i guess it's kinda obvious who it is. like just now when she came in. i had so wanted to smile and say a big hi. but why did i hesitate? maybe it's because your face didnt show you were happy coming to the meeting. why was your face so black? why are you making it so hard on me and all of us? i need to know cause i know deep down i dont want to lose you as a friend. i miss your presence and laughter and the times we spent together. all gone just with the snap of your fingers? i guess that's all i have to say. i dont know what else is there to say. cause all i can say that is im very disappointed in you and myself as well. take care, my friend. maybe one day, five years down the road, when we see each other on the streets again, things wouldnt be that hard.


11:48 PM;

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